Ate chilli that my boyfriend made last night for breakfast. Didn’t eat all of it, but felt really guilty for eating at all. Purged almost straight away, but I don’t know if I got much of it up. I did eat it with HEAPS of water, so I couldn’t tell if it was just mixed in with the water really well, or whether I was throwing up just some of the food with mostly water. I did purge until I wasn’t getting anything else up, but I still felt like I could feel food in my stomach so idk. Felt guilty later for purging, but also for having eaten, which doesn’t even make sense. Haven’t had anything for the rest of the day except water, peppermint tea, and a small hot chocolate (skim milk, cocoa powder, artificial sweetener.) I feel bad about the hot chocolate, and I also feel bad about feeling bad for eating, because that’s just absurd.
May 2012
32 posts
Bad day.
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WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?
Lol Tumblrbot, I was so excited to possibly have an actual question from a human-being! My earliest memory is being at the markets, where my Aunty used to run a stall. I remember sitting in the grass, and I was wearing this dress that sort of flaired out around me when I sat cross legged. I remember eating a sausage sandwich, and watching a man with a little dog walking past. Not an exceptionally interesting memory, but it’s still the first thing I can remember. I think I must have been about three.
